I feel I was stabbed a million times right now straight at the center of my heart. And it hurt me much. I could not even breath well. I still can’t accept that I’m the one to be accused of making things which I did not do where in fact the one who accuse me is the culprit and even make things more complicated as well. I want to clear this out for I am the victim not the culprit. I want to cry so hard just to release the pain that I felt inside. The pain really hit me bull’s eye that I found myself afterwards worthless and meaningless. I am even in a state of shock right now. Until now I can’t comprehend what’s happening around me. All I know is I am very much hurt and very much wounded deep inside. And what was I least expected happened too, for at the end I was the one considered as the bad girl. I want justice and I want freedom. I want this to end as soon as possible for I don’t think that I can still handle this anyma ore. And I ask myself WHY ME? WHY? For I never dream of this to happen in my life, never. I dunno know how to get up again from falling. Sometimes I think that ending my life is the solution for I’m sure if that will happen the two of them will be happy for they’ll be free to love and explore for the rest of their lives. . . I dunno know…. I really dunno know. . .