Monday, September 14, 2009

i'm in so much pain right now. . .


I feel I was stabbed a million times right now straight at the center of my heart. And it hurt me much. I could not even breath well. I still can’t accept that I’m the one to be accused of making things which I did not do where in fact the one who accuse me is the culprit and even make things more complicated as well. I want to clear this out for I am the victim not the culprit. I want to cry so hard just to release the pain that I felt inside. The pain really hit me bull’s eye that I found myself afterwards worthless and meaningless. I am even in a state of shock right now. Until now I can’t comprehend what’s happening around me. All I know is I am very much hurt and very much wounded deep inside. And what was I least expected happened too, for at the end I was the one considered as the bad girl. I want justice and I want freedom. I want this to end as soon as possible for I don’t think that I can still handle this anyma ore. And I ask myself WHY ME? WHY? For I never dream of this to happen in my life, never. I dunno know how to get up again from falling. Sometimes I think that ending my life is the solution for I’m sure if that will happen the two of them will be happy for they’ll be free to love and explore for the rest of their lives. . . I dunno know…. I really dunno know. . .

7 comments:

jodi said...

don't do that, i know that god gave us the life that we had right now. just pray to god and he will give you the freedom Values Reviews, Business

Jes said...

OMG...mare what's happening to you? Don't you dare do that. mas magmumukha ka lang kawawa kung anu man ang prob mo...dpat kayanin mo yan. pag nalampasan mo yan wala ng prob p aang d mo n kayang lampasan! Be Strong! =) God is always there for us. Have faith lang.

Anonymous said...

can you send me ur email add..i cannot reply on your msg at fs..u know where to find me

Laine said...

@anonymous..who you?

@jodi
yup jodi don't worry nagpalabas lang si me ng sama ng loob.

@jes
ok lang si me jes. palabas lang si me ng sama ng loob. di ako papatalo sa prob ko. :) kaya ko to.:)

Anonymous said...

its better not to post my comment i just want to get hold of you..your send me msg in friendster but i can't reply back...alam mo kung cnu ako..you find me everywhere..

Laine said...

@ anonymous
so now i know who you are. well, thanks for reading my blog and welcome to my humble abode :) :)

Anonymous said...

nice blogging though..once again..can you not post my comment..just send me a msg in fs...or send me ur email..you're searching for me before and leaving comment on my page..now i wanted to reply on your msg at my friendster shout but i cannot get through.its beta to keep it discreet my dear!..don't make it a talk of the town...DO NOT POST THIS! il be waiting for your reply in my friendster...have a nice day!!